I hope everyone had a great Christmas/Hanukah/Holiday and that the New Year brings great joy and love and wonderfulness to you.
I do not believe in making resolutions. I really don’t know anyone, myself included who makes it past Feb 1 still on the resolution track. I’m sure there are some, but not many.
But today, something clicked in me. Maybe it was watching the sunrise as I drove around trying to get too many errands run in too short a time. Maybe it was just that for the first time in a long time, I felt calm, at peace. And when I thought about it I realized why.
So I’m not calling this a resolution, I’m calling it a new way of thinking. Just like the weight loss I’ve been struggling with (doctor’s orders) for the last year, it’s not a Diet, it’s a new way of looking at food.
2011 was a tough year on me mentally and physically, but I made it through. The physical struggles are not ended, but I will survive whatever comes, whenever it comes.
In 2012, I resolve *ahem* to not let everything get bottled up inside me until I implode. I promise to deal with everyone and everything head on, trying not to be as abrasive as I know I often am, but to not let anyone push me around and make me feel badly about myself, my career, my way of life. I will learn that saying “no” is not a weakness, it’s a strength, even where my family and closest friends are concerned. I will not allow others to dictate the way I think or feel. I will not do anything I seriously don’t want to do, and I won’t feel bad that I’m not doing it.
When I need to take a break, I will take it, from whatever is pushing me the wrong way. And I will definitely enjoy more sunrises, even if, as it did today, turn into a torrential downpour a few hours later. I will write more, laugh more, and try to come up with another five year plan, because I’ve completed the last one (in six years). *grin*
Here’s to a wonderful 2012 for everyone!